I saw my T today and felt so desperate for help and some healing....i just couldn't find the right words. I'm so close to just giving up and he is so comoassionate, but frustrated with my lack of oral communication. I've sent emails and quotes and such...
I try and he knows how important words are to me. I was saying plead vs beg. He could get the difference finally, but not that I have reached the abased level of begging him.... But don't hardly know what I'm begging for except my sanity and life...some connection and hope.

So ashamed to be at this point. Feel like I'm just frustrating my poor T. So confused and blue it is near to impossible to think straight. Never felt so very helpless to make something change.

Any feedback would be appreciated.
WB