I dislike conflict and I despise drama. And in the past I have been burned/stabbed in the back by way too many of my "best friends". In elementary school my "best friends" later bullied me and made a point of making my life miserable.

Well, lately I've been going crazy, psych issues wise. But on top of that, my best friend, out of nowhere, has decided that we aren't friends anymore. And she has made a point through her actions of letting me know she doesn't want me in her life by excluding me from EVERYTHING. That and lots of other drama that I won't get into.

Well...today was the last straw. I left school planning to go eat lunch on my own (because despite my efforts she still stood me up on that ) but instead I just sat in my car and sobbed harder than I have in 5 years. For 30 minutes!
Um. I don't cry. The last time I cried was when one of my friends committed suicide.
What is wrong with me?!

I feel so rejected and alone.
I gave her a piece of my heart over these past four years, but over just a short period of time she successfully ripped it up and threw it away.
This is THE LAST thing I need right now! Aaaaaahhhhhhh!

I could really use a hug right now.
Or, does anyone have any stories of best friend losses they want to share? I just feel so bad about feeling this bad.