Thanks for your reply Talanic
This is all so new to me. Not so much the BP but the mixed episode is terrifying for me, I've never experienced one before, feels like more than I can handle and having to deal with it alone makes it so much harder. I just joined psychcentral for the support I need. I'm hoping this is going to be a good experience and I can get the support I desperately need.
I will keep your offer in mind