Hello - I'm new here - just joined and am glad to have found somewhere to go where I don't feel so alone. I can't afford therapy, and my family isn't much support. I've been suffering from anxiety terribly lately. We lost our home in December to a fire (we are in a new one now), and since then I feel so frightful. I especially don't like being alone. I'm a stay-at-home mom; and my husband has to work, so I'm forced to be alone all day long. I do pretty okay with it until something comes up like he has to work over or gets called out to fix a leak - he is a water/sewer operator for a town nearby. I have no idea when he'll be home when this happens, and I panic. Today there is a very bad leak he's working on, and the probability that he'll be home late after working hours is high. I've been panicking about it since last night when he had to go look at it. After I got my son on the bus I just burst into tears, terrified. Then I start getting irrational thoughts - I know they're totally irrational, but they're there and scare me even more - like what if he doesn't come home at all?? How would I pay the bills because I don't make the money?? I get myself so worked up. Panic attacks have become the norm for me now. On top of it, we have a goat who is old and not doing well. He's been laying on his side since Saturday, and my husband has to hand-feed him. I've been avoiding seeing him because I know I would get upset. But he can't starve, and if the husband's not here to feed him... And tomorrow my mom goes into the hospital for 2 or 3 days to get by-pass surgery on her leg because of circulation problems. My dad and sister are going with her. I can't because my son has school. So I just feel completely, totally alone, stuck here all by myself, and am having a hard time dealing with all this. I wish someone could just be here with me. It would help. Thanks for "listening."