Newtus...the meds may not be fully effective for you but they do keep you out of the hospital and they do keep you seeing the therapist you like...sunshine is right about starting a quitting all the time.

Here is the problem with losing weight then getting back on the meds you will gain it back. I know how it is on those meds....for me not eating was almost painful...it wasn't all hunger so much as stopping an intense need for food. You can't fight it. Typically your weight on meds doesn't stabilize for around a year so it's not some sort of short term battle where you can just fight it for a while.

You have to decide if being able to live in the world outside of a hospital is worth a little weight gain albeit that might be reduced with metformin. You've got one med that works right now and it's the strongest...what happens when that stops working because you keep switching on and off it. What happens when you can get no relief from anything.

I know your stuck between two bad outcomes but you need to figure out which you want healthier mentally allowed freedom and interaction with your T and other outpatient facilities.

Unfortunately the other outcome is much bleaker. You sometimes complain on here of how you used to be and how things are different now and while this is not true for everyone for some people more psychotic breaks cause increasing damage over time and you start to lose function permanently. Also the world isn't going to let you be fully psychotic you will end up in hospital and one of these days they will decide not to let you back out....you already said you a avoided state hospital once I would hate to see that happen to you....and if it does you could end up not only overweight but alone and with no freedom of choice in anything.

This is something you have to decide...a week ago you were desperate to see your T....how would it feel if you were banned from seeing her due to noncompliance on your meds? What if you rarely got to see your dad because he had to work during hospital visiting hours?