I've had times where I said or did something that showed I didn't fully trust my T and when she was surprised, I felt a backlash of guilt. My T hasn't done anything to make me not trust her, and it almost feels like I'm not giving her enough credit or I'm being ungrateful. It has even made me worried that she would start to think that there is something wrong with "us" and that I just can't work with her for some reason. It feels like I betray my T when I do this. So I know how you feel! Like you said, it doesn't exactly mean that you don't trust your T, even if you have your moments. You will both work through it and things will go back to normal.