Last week I had my last session ever with my T since I have graduated. Awhile ago I had asked my T to come up with a list of books that she has read and that I could read so that I could continue our work together after termination. It would be a way for me to still hold onto her, and was especially fitting since she had once given me a bookmark as a gift.

On our last day, my T had said that she was a disorganized person and didn't have the list yet, and would have to get it to me "at a later date." I was a little upset because I felt like I needed that list on the last day because that was how I was going to survive without her. So I asked "did you forget?" She said no (and I thought she may have been offended), and that she had been thinking about the list ever since I had asked for it. She said that she wanted to do it, but revealed that she felt intimidated because she thinks that I have read a lot about Psychology and have formed opinions about things. I was relieved that this was the reason, and told her that I would never judge a book she suggested and that I really don't read as much as it seems like I do.

We left it at that and I never actually asked her when/how she would send me the list. I assumed it would be through email, but it has been a week since our termination, and she still hasn't sent me the list. I'm kind of worried because:
1. It is not normal for us to email, as my T has very strict boundaries. Both of us in the past have asked before we sent an email (which has only been like once for each of us in our 3+ years). My T never actually asked to send me this email, so what if she feels that she doesn't have permission and it would be too big of an assumption that I would be okay with it? So maybe she will just never email me the list out of this fear?
2. What if she decides she isn't comfortable with writing the list, but again doesn't feel she has permission to let me know? She has said before that she would do things, and then later told me that she was uncomfortable with it.

I can't contact her to ask. If she is just taking her time making the list, it would seem very desperate, rude, and pushy, especially since I had asked her before if she had forgotten. But what if she never emails me? How long do you think I should wait before I contact her to ask? I know I'm being very impatient, but I'm freaking out because I don't know for sure what's going on...