From what you wrote in posts in the days before you were hospitalized about how desperate and suicidal you were, your pdoc did what he had to do. You wrote on here multiple times in those days of pretty severe suicidal thinking and even were considering that you might need to check yourself in.

No, it's no fun when our pdoc's have to have us admitted for our own safety. Sometimes not much changes med-wise while we are there; the main purpose of being there is to save us from killing ourselves while the thoughts pass (and they do pass as you know). The kicking and behavior while waiting in the ER for a room just solidified their assessment of your lack of stability and safety. Yes, long waits in the ER are frustrating. I get that; been there. I DO understand what you went through that way.

The good news is that you did not kill yourself. In that perspective, the hospitalization did exactly what your pdoc wanted for you; it kept you safe from suicide.

Yes, there comes a point where hospitalization is no longer needed. You are safe enough to leave. No, hospitalization sometimes accomplishes no more than that, but perhaps staying alive is enough. That isn't a minor thing.

Whether you stay with your pdoc is up to you. Another pdoc would probably have taken the same action under the same circumstances though. You were in very poor shape based on how you had posted here on PC in the days prior to this all happening, and your description of your condition before and during hospitalization depicts someone in a very severe mental crisis.

I don't like it either when my pdoc or T pretty much play hardball with me and tell me to check myself in or they'll have it done for me. It pisses me off because it seems like a betrayal. But given time and space, I realize if they had not done so, I very well could have ended up dead. My children and husband would have been left without me. The hospital provided safety long enough to keep me alive through the worst of the crisis, and once I was out I could work once again with my T and pdoc on the problems that sent me there in the first place.