I'd be looking for a new PDoc as well. I know they have to take action when you express intent to harm yourself, but you pdoc seemed to have an overly alarmist, almost knee jerk reaction. You just need to be extremely careful about how you reveal this information to a T or pdoc, and the wording you use. It's a difficult position to be in since they are walking a fine line if they under react as well. Still, I'd be just as reluctant to go back to this doctor. Even if you trust her, it seems like she acts first, thinks later, which is not helpful.