emotional regulation is just a term granite. all it means is that you need to focus on regulating (making sure they stay even instead of wildly going up and down when stressed) your emotions. it is a skill everyone needs to learn for better emotional health. It may be a term used in DBT, but that doesn't mean that DBT "owns" it. I agree with Sierra, stay off google! It just spirals you out of control even more, and you don't need that.

I've noticed a trend of you starting off sessions where you feel horrible nad awful, and a year ago it would stay that way throughout the entire session, and you would leave feeling worse and spiral down. Now you may start off feeling horrible and awful, but you manage to TELL T that and she jumps right in to help you, and you leave feeling less awful. This is a big step, and I hope you continue doing that, because little by little you will trust that your T doesn't hate you and you will be more open to telling her your feelings in the moment. That is how healing happens. Stick with all the ugliness, you can do it.