If your therapist is any good at his job, he won't judge you or think you sound creepy. Whatever he puts out in the world, it's his responsibility, not yours, and if it was possible to find it, again that's his responsibility. It must have been very hard to see that. I would absolutely urge you to talk to him.

I have discovered some unexpected things about my T before now. And at one point I stumbled on his Facebook page completely by accident. I had decided never to look him up on there, and I wouldn't have found him anyway as he has quite a common name (kind of like being called Paul Jones or something like that) and he hasn't changed the URL on his Facebook profile to his name so it doesn't come up on google. But I saw another T for a few weeks last summer well mine was on vacation, I googled her just to find her website and her Facebook page came up - and my T was friends with her. I looked at his page, couldn't see anything except his profile photo, no problem.

Because I'd visited his page, it came up in the search box sometimes if I started typing in a name. Sometimes I went and looked at it just to see his photo. And then after Christmas the picture changed to one of him and a child with a Christmas tree. Oh my gosh, that picture nearly destroyed me. I felt so stupid bringing it up with my T, but he got it straight away, he said: "It's everything you never had," and it ended up being quite helpful. I asked him not to tell me who the child was but it could be a grandchild, possibly.

I then had a really weird dream in which I went to his house and his wife gave me dinner and made me sleep in a bed with dirty sheets. When I told him about that, he pointed out that the child in the photo had a dirty face, which I hadn't even noticed...

Oops, this post got long!