I agree . I did find some sights that didn't paint emotional regulation in a bad light . and at first I did feel better when I left and then I got on google . but this morning I am calmer and am thinking more about it . I do believe I have become much better at communicating with her over time. sometimes I loose sight of this. I did panic last night because I told her of a horrible thing I did and I think that might have been a bit of a fall out and made everything else look bad. I do have a lot of questions for her round this . like does she feel that this should be the focus of my T and maybe it is best I never talk about my past at all and to focus on regulating my future and my now . it seems I get upset when I talk about the simplest thing from my past .