I talked to my T in the beginning of the session about what I had previously posted this week here about feeling stuck. We talked about this, and he said it really helps him to know this and he seemed to alter his approach a bit with me today.

Well I was able to talk a few details about CSA. I didn't get overwhelmed or too upset- I didn't even cry. I left feeling like I had actually accomplished something, and made progress.

As I was driving home, feeling good, listening to music, I all of a sudden got completely flooded with memories- really traumatic stuff and just became hysterical. I had to pull over and compose myself. It's been a few hours now and my anxiety is horrible. I tried to journal about some of the stuff that came to me but I can't right now. I feel like I need to talk to my T. He said I can text or call "anytime", but I feel weird doing it so I never have.

What happened here? A few hours ago I thought I had made some progress, now I feel like I took 100 steps back. I'm sad and frustrated. I never thought trauma work could be such a roller coaster ride. :-(