Graduating from college with better grades, and probably off to grad school. To be honest, although I've suffered, I've also made a lot of unnecessary mistakes as a result of that suffering. And I don't think I'm better off as a result of my BP, no matter how much I try to think positively. Nevertheless, we have what we have: nothing more, nothing less. So it's as pointless to think about a life without BP as it is to think of life as the proverbial Queen of France.