What is the Asian market is that like a food thing or like trinkets or what? Sounds fun....

The only way to move forward is to set some goals and move slowly toward those....its going to be slow and arduous but when you get to the other side things will be alot better...you have to decide what you want out of life...things that will make you happy...people activities whatever. A lot of times we set goals like I want to not have X ie voices weight gain etc those goals are not as useful pick what you actually want and not what you don't want and you'll realize what it actually means to be happy...