its a tiny inside asian strip mall. with the main attraction being the grocery. imported goods. everything from asian fruit to sodas and different brands of noodles and herbs and more and live fish to eat. even live turtles to eat. everything. and then like an asian bank there and bakery and some trinket shops.

anyway i just asked my dad to quit his job for me and he got pissed. started ranting how i need to get a job or find friends. theres something you guys dont know or maybe you do...im attached to my dad at the hip figuratively...hes my best friend and id be right in the hospital if he died or killed myself. but hes still my parent i know that.

i just...im having negative symptoms of schiz too and sometimes it feels like depression but its not but this time it does because ive been doing a lot of thinking lately. about my life and financial troubles and weight. and troubles with my mom and my dads working so much. and just so much other crap.

i just...idk