Hi celtic, two years are seriously NOT down the drain!!! They happened!!! They're yours!!! And yours to hold on to, it sounds like that was a massive achievement for you!!! Don't undersell them for a second!!!
Now you know that, that at least is what you have been able to do/what you can do!!!
I'm not trivializing in any way the urges you're having now, I know they can be SO powerful. And yes maybe you need some extra support to get back on the road you were on but that doesn't mean you're right back at square one at all. And maybe a bit of reflection of things that have worked for you before in stopping may help???".
And keep on talking to us, lots of supportive ideas, advice and understanding on here. So whatever you want to talk about............
Alison