So, like I said earlier, I sent my T an email just saying I had stuff I wanted to talk about and for her to bring it up. I wasn't overly specific.

Of course...now she replies within a few hours, saying she looks forward to hearing what I have to say. I hate email sometimes I'm glad T allows it, as it's been supremely helpful for me in the past, but sometimes, the unpredictability is maddening. Yes, you get that with the phone if you have to leave a message or waiting for a reply to a text, but there's just something different about email.

Her reply made me smile, and then I'm like "oh, I'm not mad at T anymore," but I think I'm still feeling anger that I just don't know how to direct. If I direct it at myself, I'll end up employing poor coping mechanisms. If I direct it at T, I know it's not really justified. Lots to talk about tomorrow, I guess. At the same time, I don't want to use this to avoid the difficult topic that brought all these feelings up in the first place.