I hope you don't let this continue to be disturbed about something that is in the past and only you know about it. I think most of us have some dark secret locked away we don't ever want anyone to know. I know I do and if I think about it too long I will start to question my entire life not just the last 30 years but the 30 before that too.

Be kind to yourself. And forgiveness is always good, too. I hope the distrubing thoughts go away soon for you.