I am lost, in a ragging current of emotions
kept inside, locked in the basement of my soul
like a frightened child I am pulled down
and am drowning in my own fears.

I see faces and hear voices but they are distant.
They are muzzled by the water that I am emersed in.
Arms reach out for me but they can not come in.
Trapped in my cell by a cold and watery shield.

I shall not weep, but I am lonely.
I shall not scream, I can not be saved.
I brought myself here, to these depths and foolishly I plunged into my own fate.

Farewell to the air, the sun and the earth.
Farewell oh water that has stolen my breath.
May the sun set up on my soul
Only to offer it a new day.

I am finding it hard to not hurt myself right now and I am trying to keep away from this behavior. I keep telling myself; You are seeing the doc in 5hrs. But it is hard. I wish I had someone to talk to. If I phone the crisis line they will have a fit. I dont trust doing that because I have been arrested under "the mental health act" before. Not Fun!!!!!!
I will be okay; just keep telling myself that.
I will talk to you all later.
itsjustme