Hi everyone. Thank you for the quick responses! Last week she seemed more sympathetic. Should have just ended therapy last week and not have gone yesterday. I am from California. Last week I cried and I was sad that our therapy was ending. It came out of the blue. If she had just said; "Hey, we have been doing this for 2 and a half years and I don't know about you, but no progress was being made" Instead it was all I can't see you anymore, I don't specialize in this, here are some doctors I looked up for you (none are on my insurance.). It basically felt like, hey thanks for the great two years now get the F out. I mean a couple months ago she gave me her email and told me I could email whenever I wanted. Maybe I abused that by sending her too many emails as if I was emailing a friend (youtube videos and what not). But I didn't expect her to say no more emails. I expected her to say only once in a while about your progress. It felt like a total slap in the face. I really wish I could tell this to her face. It just makes me angry that she cut off all communication except to call her when I have a new therapist so she could refer people to that therapist. What am I your messenger? I expected her to be different. Like she brought me cupcakes on my birthday (which was nice) and she was kinda like a big sister/friend ( no we did not have any relationship outside therapy).

As for a new therapist, I don't know. I know I want to take time off from therapy. Maybe 3 months 6 months or a year, I'm not sure yet. I am just tired having to talk to someone about my problems. I want to stop looking at me and see how I can help other people. Sorry for the long rant but since my therapist cut me off, you guys are all I have