Hi secret, really glad that you've put off your plans. But I think that's just as much a "testament" to you as to them. And if you could give yourself a hug right now then you should be, although sending one your way anyway!!
What your dad did was so "out of the blue" and considerate/caring (?) but you also let him in there- "through the cracks".
And things like that can be SO special/meaningful!!!
I know it probably still isn't real easy for you now, but any light, any spark, anything that breaks through that darkness just a bit has to be worth holding onto. And I think you're seeing that, right?? Just a little???
Really hope lunch goes well, and use it!!! Whether that's a little reflection on positive memories, absorbing the feelings it sounds like he has for you (?), or just opening up a little about the way you're feeling to him, whatever works for you.......he clearly wants to be with you!!
And hey, you're clearly in your friends thoughts too!!! You matter!! And you matter to us too!! So hang with us...........whatever we can do to help!!!
Alison