Thanks (((bipolar))). I am seeing my pdoc regularly and we are trying to deal with the meds. I hope I will be helped with the Lamictal which I am now titrating up. Your post sort of reminded me of a therapist who I had a long time ago who kept trying to tell me, to go easier on myself when my feelings go south.( And my husband says he feels bad that I get so down on myself when I am depressed.) I am starting to think I am not as accepting of mental illness when it comes to myself. I can be "enlightened" and accepting about others, but deep down I think I must have a weak character or I am lazy or many other negative problems.
Oh- I know what it was that reminds me of my old therapist. The gentle supportiveness of you and others here in response to my postings. That 's how my old therapist was. Here at psych central, it always surprises me how kind people are, because I am always beating myself up and expect others to do the same.

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