I have no friends. None. And I know a lot of people who actually DO have friends say this but.. I don't. The only numbers in my phone are family members and my doctors. The only person who texts me is my mom. It's been almost a year now since I've had a boyfriend.

I WAS talking with one of my exes and things were going well until out-of-nowhere he started ignoring me and acting like I didn't exist :/ He got a new phone and changed his number (his old phone WAS crappy and I know he changed his number because of his most recent ex but.. he hasn't given me his new number either, so..) and hasn't responded to any emails or Facebook messages. And when I say out-of-nowhere I literally mean every thing was FINE and great and then just.. BAM. Stop responding.

I'm on disability so I don't have a job where I can meet people. There's really no "groups" here that I can go to and meet anyone. The last one I went to for depression, everyone was older than me (I'm 29) and married with kids and I just found it hard to relate to any of them plus they were always "busy".

It's gotten to the point where I only leave the house maybe once every week or every other week to run across the street to buy groceries or whatever. I live at home and hibernate in my room because my parents, too, are always busy working and when they aren't working, they're watching TV and get irritated if I "interrupt" them..

I really don't know what to do anymore. I mean. If I already basically don't exist to anyone then what's the point of really existing in the first place? It's been almost 3 years since my last attempt (if the paramedics had gotten there 15 minutes later, I would've succeeded) and I really don't see any point in trying any more :/