((((((((((((((((((inny))))))))))))))))))))) I wish you could see yourself in your own words. A caring and good person. It seems that it is so common to minimize what horrible things have been done. Because they are abuse. And you have not brought them on. It sounds like you have just tried to live in an abusive world. The tricky thing is that you don't deserve any of it. It is not your fault that he is abusing you. It is his.

Please don't compare yourself to a leech. That you are not You are someone who is hurting and reaching out And that is good. Not being a leech.

It is late but I wanted to respond. I hope you are safe. Take care.