I struggle with the shame and comparison of myself to other people. It's like you work your butt off, struggle with a mental illness, and there is almost nothing to show for it. When my thoughts become shaming and then I measure myself up with other people, I become more and more depressed. Most of the time I can catch myself in this thinking pattern and try and reinforce in my head that these people do not have the same obstacles as myself, I've worked hard for what I have and it's that much harder for me. Sometimes, just getting up and out of bed is such a struggle that when you do, it's an accomplishment you can only share with yourself as most just don't get it.

I feel for you, though. Keep up the writing, that's awesome in and of itself.