I'm so glad your T is willing to do this for you! I can relate to the power of holding hands because on my last session with my T, we had a "handshake" where we grasped hands, but it lasted for longer than a handshake, and we didn't actually shake our hands. It was like we were holding them. I was starting to wonder why she didn't let go, and then she brought up her other hand and held mine in both of hers. That touch felt magical to me too, and it really confirmed for me how much she cares. I was able to experience her care on a different level, and it was so meaningful and powerful to me. I completely understand how touch from a husband, significant other, friend, etc. wouldn't be as impactful. Enjoy the feeling.