It's very interesting to me that the part who was in love with my T seems to have settled down lately. I love her, but don't feel "in love", though I don't trust that part not to come back when she looks a certain way.

Holding her hand never triggered any transference reaction except for feeling safe, settled, and nice inside. My T used to think it was causing those other kinds of feelings, but I kept insisting that it did not. Her touching my knees is unacceptable to me, though. Once she did that when we did EMDR a couple of years ago, and I had to tell her that it felt "too good". Holding her hand doesn't feel "too good"; it feels just right!