I totally agree with both of you. I'm still having trouble reconciling the fact that my own brain turned on me and told me things that were not real but they seemed absolutely real to me. I was SURE the doctor was calling DCPP to take my son away. And I was positive that someone was trying to get me to kill myself. And I was so sure that everyone could read or hear my thoughts and they were all making fun of me.

And none of that was real.

I feel now that I have to keep explaining and reliving and going over the episode in my mind. And that I feel like I can never be among "normal" people because they don't know what I went through. And I can't tell them because people are scared of the word psychotic. I wish I could tell people just to get it out of me but I'm limited. That's why I come here