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Old May 21, 2014, 08:56 PM
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Originally Posted by Supanova View Post
Will the LSD show up on your drug screen? I can see how that can be so anxiety provoking. I personally dont think they should do drug screening unless you have turned up to work off your face, which most people are smart enough not to do.

A little anxiety today, procrastinating, just need to get moving - off the computer! And I desperately need a horseride!! Just finding it so hard to get out there, it takes SO much energy. Got another appointment with my pdoc/t today. I almost need a break from therapy, its been so intensive lately.

Going away this weekend which will be good, but it will be with a couple of people who are heavy into drugs and alcohol and I have a horse thing on the next day. I hope they dont pressure me, as I have given into their peer pressure before.
The LSD doesn't show up as far as I know, so I'm only a little worried about that. And just to be clear, LSD is not a habit for me. I have done it 3 times over the past 15 years. It was stupid to do it now, and I totally regret it, but I didn't know I would miss a screen and be in this situation.

I am more worried about the poppy seeds, because those can test false positive for opiates, and they check for that.It was totally stupid. I ate the food without thinking, and it was only later that night that I realized I had eaten poppy seeds. I didn't report it because I didn't want to create more problems for myself, and now there's this.

I feel like my life is totally crashing down around me, and I'm watching it happen, but there's nothing i can do. Depression and anxiety hit me like a truck today, and I can't stop crying or focus on anything at all. I don't think I can handle going through this if it goes badly. When this happened initially, I was hospitalized for being so unwell. I don't want to get back to that point. I really hate my life right now, and I really want to just give up. But I don't even know how to do that.

I'm such an idiot
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