When I first asked my mum about seeking help, I was looking for a place to get a diagnosis that would help the psychologist/GP/counsellor/psychiatrist understand what they needed to do in order to help me (so far, the idea is just anxiety and depression).

My mum only wants me to see psychologists, but it's not helping me and I'm not getting better and I still have questions about what is really wrong with me. I want to see a psychiatrist but my mum thinks they're just going to put me on medication (she's quite anti-medication + religious so she thinks a simple prayer is just going to make it better - I am a believer but I draw a fine line between my faith and medical help).

If it's what helps me, then I want it, my mum thinks I'll just end up too dependant on them and they're just 'happy pills' or 'something to get high on' which annoys me because not all meds are like that, especially if you're on the RIGHT meds.

On top of that, the only psychologists she wants me to see are doctors who have a Christian faith (again, I draw a fine line between faith and medical help - If I want to talk faith, I'll talk to someone at church or a friend, not in a doctors office). And to make it even worse, I seriously need to talk about my sexuality (I'm still in the closet) to someone because it is the main reason I am feeling down all the time and I don't want to talk about that to someone who might be against the LGBT community (including my anti-gay mother).

The GP even tried convincing my mother about seeing a psychiatrist, she's Christian too but not anti-meds and I don't know how I should bring up sexuality with her to see if she's with or against or is just not going to judge me regardless.

I just feel really stuck and I don't know what to do.