I have been exactly where you are. IOP will help but the thing that helped me was meds, it was like ice on a sprained brain.

I do believe you can have trauma from psychosis--of course! But is it possible that you are reliving and it's PTSD from an earlier experience? That and meds n therapy if course helped my PTSD, but yea, it was hard to differentiate one from the other. The trauma really is bad, as yiu know.

I hated my own dang brain sooo much for falling for the fear, but that's life. I have bipolar and my brain literally couldn't do its job, meds helped--but yea, it plumb wore me out. It's humiliating as hell. I was delusional in my thinking, jumping to all sorts of conclusions. You aren't alone, thank God we both got help. What an eye opening experience. Sheesh!!! I'd rather break my leg skiing, thank you!! ;-)

Things WILL get easier. Your brain literally got a boo-boo. Give it time.