I cry every time.

Usually, it's just tears slipping down my cheeks. But when we talked about my Dad it turned into sobs.

I never feel self conscious about crying there, except once.

I try not to cry at work in front of my boss because I think he doesn't like it, but other than that, I'm mostly fine crying anywhere and everywhere. I tried to hold it back all my life, and i'm just done with that ****. I'm tired of pretending to be someone else. I'm sensitive. That's who I am. Anyone who doesn't like me this way can get ****ed. I'm going to be myself and that's that.

T did make me feel self conscious about crying one time because she said something about me masking my emotions. That I always came in with smiles and then desolved into tears. But that's life, right? You can't walk around in public sobbing. Maybe her point is that I mask it well? I don't know. I didn't like her observing it though. Irritating.