It turns out that the therapist that I wanted to see doesn't have room in her schedule to see me. I received a phone call from her receptionist while I was at work today to let me know that another therapist that I never heard of would call me back later today. Well I forgot all about it and I received the call from this new T. I don't know that I like her. I felt guilty because when she called today she kept talking about how difficult it was to schedule clients, and that she would have to ask to have some other client that was cancelling all the time to reschedule in order to see me, and so on.

I don’t know, I didn’t like the fact that I felt almost bullied into a timeslot that is really actually very late in the evening. I barely got a word in edgewise. I felt like I was intruding on her. I understand that she has a schedule and has other clients, but I don’t want to feel like a burden on anyone. I got the impression that she was nice, just overextended with too many clients. I already know what the answer is: if I don’t feel comfortable after talking to her on the phone, then I shouldn’t go. I feel like a piece of crap for cancelling after making the appointment literally 3 hours ago. Blah.

Anyway, not much else to report. I was sick and had to call out yesterday from work. I still feel a bit ill, but I don’t have the luxury (or option) to stay home for days on end, unfortunately. I’m feeling a bit better of late. I am going to try to take advantage of this newfound clarity and try to job hunt.