I had a very good discussion with my psychologist about a month ago on this topic. Back between 1994 & 2003, my depression was really bad. I had lost my engineering career & it was my escape from my bad marriage....so I had NO PLACE to escape to any longer......so SUI seemed like the only solution. Several times I should not have actually survived it...amazing that there was no lasting damage from the times. But I had made up my mind that I wanted out & there was no reason to call or even talk to anyone about it.

Life has been so good since I left my H 7 years ago. I moved to a place 2100 miles away where I didn't know anyone....they could know about my past only what I choose to tell them.....but something came up this year in regards to my health & quality of life. We had a discussion about when quality of life is no longer worth living.....what would it be wrong to end one's life when all the options have been tried & there is NOTHING LEFT?

It was a very interesting intellectual (not emotional)discussion we had....about that......it was like end of the line hopeless with no other options available that would work.....it was thinking in the future, not in the now so she knew there was no possibility that I was feeling that way at this point.....but I also said that once I make up my mind, there is nothing that could change it unless there was a miracle that happened .