Although I don't know you in person, I know you through the feelings you share on this forum and I share those same kinds of feelings with you, 100%. You matter to me and many others here, and to people who know you in person. Hold on to that thought and if you can't, at least know that in our thoughts and in our spirits, we feel your pain and we out here are holding on to you and supporting you through this. You are not alone and you are loved.