Hi guys, this is my first post in this forum.
I have typically struggled with depression for the past 6 years and I would cut quite often to deal with the emotional pain. However, for the past 3 months I have been clean and very happy until tonight when I cut because I was craving the pain and seeing the blood.
I don't want to disappoint the people who put faith in me not hurting myself anymore but I constantly crave the rush I get from it. Do you have any suggestions? I have already tried drawing red lines on myself and snapping rubber bands and it just doesn't make up for what I really want to feel.
I just want to not crave this anymore.