Thank you for all the good replies. Well I also noticed one more thing,

I am currently going into PMS actually am in it already. Yesterday was a horrible afternoon and today a horrible morning. Yesterday before going to bed I bursted into tears and cried like hell, couldn't calm down, even my bf was shocked. Then this morning I woke up like 5am and was all nervous!! It was only in late morning when I started feeling a bit better but not ok.

Even when writting this to you I feel anxiety coming out. And I think all of the bad feelings is actually PMS cusd everything is confused then.

Well I dunoo. Maybe you are all right, maybe this isn't a med for me. But to tell you the truth I don't wanna take any more meds. Since I have cyclothimia which is not nearly as bad as bipolar (they say) I don't wanna be on so many meds. I am also thinking that meds made me all confused and weird like I am now.

I don't know anymore. I am just waiting for better times, when I will feel a normal emotion at a normal time. When I won't be afraid anymore and when I will be happy when thinking about travelling, shopping, going on a cup of coffee, dress nice and hanging out with my bf and family (all of that is somehow gone now ) I even lost my sence of clothing, what I like and don't like, I don't care how I look and I was never like that.

Maybe my meds aren't addapted yet in my body, cus I do feel a change, I don't analize that much and I am calmer, my thoughts aren't racing as much as they did when they put me od SSRI (IDIOTS!!).

I presume I must be very sensitive on this kinnda meds, they all make me even weirder. My father once said, you shouldn't take any meds at all, they are making you all "weird". Maybe he is right...

Waiting for your reply