Was your ex-T male or female? I don't want to interpret this wrong and I'm confused because you said ex-T had "erotic paternal transference" but then you were using female pronouns. I'm not sure if there are two different people or the same??
If ex-T was male, perhaps you are better off sticking to female T's due to that experience. Regardless of gender I will reassure you there are most definitely other amazing Therapists out there. I believe there are more good than bad. It is difficult to find a good fit and sometimes it may take some work to find the right person...but they are out there!

I am so sorry you had that experience. It sounds awful. That is so sad that you would reach the point of shaking during sessions and you dreaded going. It is normal to dread sessions because Therapy is hard and some issues/topics are difficult to face; but not normal to dread sessions because you fear your Therapist.

Does you current T want you to find a new T in general, or just for the time she is away? I hope everything works out for the best! Keep us posted if you can.