Oh and another thing about where I would be without Bipolar. I wouldn't have vast stores of knowledge about the bizarre and varies topics I researched frantically in manic phases. Hehe.

I also wouldn't have a belief in a magical powerful loving something beyond all things that I have experienced oneness with and understanding of more than my fair share in this life. I know it may probably be the product of my effed up brain. But that doesn't bother me somehow. And I just can't completely get down with that fact that it is nothing. But perhaps I have just hijacked by own thread with wacky spiritual mania stuff. Oops.