you know what i have done as of late..i have taken up gardening..i kinda did it on my own but it is really helping a lot, the planting of the flowers knowing they are alive and i am helping them somehow makes me feel more alive..idk if that makes any sense ..but it is working for me, also i have a really good t that helps, i really look forward to those thursday evening chats...i get to talk about everything! having someone to talk to about my feelings is nice, and if somehow you can make new friends & come across a special one(if you are not in a relationship/married) that helps a bunch too.

something about pulling up the weeds really does help me, i imagine i'm pulling all the negative thoughts that are in my mind as i pull them up..just a little game i play with myself, every little bit helps so i do what i can to combat those feelings..never easy..but with practice it does make a difference..gives
me something to do, a sense of purpose and a sense of accomplishment.

i hope this helps