I don't know if this is normal for people with PTSD. I struggle a lot with paranoia and hypervigilance which makes it difficult for me to trust people. I think not being able to feel safe or trust my therapist is the hardest of all. Sometimes, I feel like my therapist is just pretending to care and that I can't trust her because she talks about me to the other staff working there. I don't feel safe there. I get nervous sitting in the waiting room before my sessions. I feel like the staff there are talking about me or laughing at me. It really feels real. I know PTSD makes me a little more paranoid or hypervigilant than most people but it's just very hard to believe it's all in your head when you feel that it's true. I used to get the same paranoid thoughts with the last therapist I saw which made me question if this is more me than the people working there. Like hearing the conversations or any kind of laughter at that place makes me brain jump immediately to they are laughing about me or talking about me. My brain comes up with all these possible scenarios as to what they are talking or laughing about. Has anyone ever experienced the same thing? Is it just part of the PTSD?