all my efforts are ridiculous...

all my intimate efforts are somewhat difficult to understand...

...I am not talking about you...

I satisfy myself with anything I can find to hurt myself...

...apparently I need to hurt first to understand others pain...

but there comes a time when my pain needs to be understood....

my senses are a bit damaged....I cannot see....

I cannot see without wondering how I became so blind...

...my body hit a tree......