Well, she just replied to my lengthy set of three emails I wrote her last night about all this and about how worried and insecure I feel lately, as well as the one I wrote this morning saying I wish I hadn't written all that, worrying a lot over a little:

"Good morning, Leah, I just scanned over your e-mail thread and was pleased that you are feeling more centered this morning. Don't worry about the fee; your rate will stay the same; and I am totally comfortable with that. I am not going anywhere; I am here for you! Right now I am off to get ready for lunch with my colleague/friend. Hope you are having a good morning, XXXXX"

It's a little odd to have said so much and gotten such a brief reply, but I suppose it's understandable as I told her this morning I'd let my worries get away with me and wanted to wrap up the email. I guess my thing is that... I know when my feelings are illogical, I can typically see that, but... I guess I'd still like more insight and reassurance from her. However... she did sum it all up... no fee increase, and she's fine with it.

But am I fine with it, and am I fine with feeling so... anxious. I guess having brought up how hard a topic finances are for me, this is bound to be a little complicated for a while along with the other hard topic we're dealing with. Time, right, maybe if I just give it time to settle. But I wish she'd written more and not 'scanned.' Oh well. I'm really short on sleep, this will probably seem fine later. Things are actually going alright, maybe I should dwell on that for a while.