i am feeling trapped in this horrible time zone of depression. yesterday i was trying not to crash but it happened, i crashed..BOOM..i felt like running out of my house and never coming back. and there was my husband talking about buying a house.. telling me look at this one.. oh look at that one...AHHHH.. i don't want to look at anything.. i just want to disappear!! i wanted to tell him that but i couldn't.. what a disappointment.. got married for what now i ask myself.. am i truly happy?? he is great, but i am not well and he cannot see that... or he doesn't want to. i don't blame him, hell i don't want to see it either... i don't want this life anymore..