I have always avoided mds and now, watching her go through this just confirms my belief that I would rather be dead than in their clutches. I realize others do not feel that way and they (like she) are free to participate in their imprisonment. I am not trying to talk her out of treatment - although I do also tell her it is an option when she muses over stopping the tortuous treatments.
My body and my life and I am not turning either over to them - dead is going to happen either on my terms or otherwise - I want it to be on my terms not theirs. I would walk away. I have walked away from them even after they tried their scare tactics on me. I do not tell her to walk away - but I most certainly would.

My not going back to med mal practice will not solve things either - I do still write appeals on it - and of course my dealings with psychiatrists in court always brings me a sort of pleasure to at least cross examine them and expose them even when I lose because it pisses them off so. They are not used to not being treated like they are special. Representing plaintiffs against doctors and hospitals has nothing to do with fixing the problem - it would just make me happy to piss them off/annoy them/inconvenience them and put them a ball park they do not run.