"babble" on...
I don't understand people sometimes. They want you not to do something, but they don't want you to take the steps necessary from keeping you from doing it. Throwing your meds in the trash??!! They want you to conform to their narrowminded thoughts... it's not even "do it my way or bust" it is "do it my way, period"
You know that everything about that is wrong but I still know that it causes a lot of pain, especially in the situation you are in and the stress you are under. I am thankful that you have decided what is best for you on your own and that you are seeking treatment.
There is a huge amount of stress in anticipation of things in the near future... please do whatever you have to to get through this (the healthy things, that is...) see your doc, take time for yourself when you can, talk to your doc about your eating and try to find other coping skills to substitute.
Have hope that once some of the upcoming matters are settled you will be able to focus more on your health without the additional stress and anxiety.
In the meantime, post... that is what we are here for.
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