I'm a weird person. I know some people stranger than me, but is that realy some kind of consolation?
Because when I look to those people I see them alone, not talking to anyone, not having friends and having very strange behaviours and personalities. I wouldn't be friend of those people either, at least the ones I'm thinking about. As nobody can stand with them.

I do talk to people, so at least, in their eyes and in mine, I'm not so strange. But I'm still strange. And people like me don't get very accepted by their peers. I can say I'm still in the battle field, fighting for a place in a group, in the society, but it seems unlikely to happen.

My faults/problems: I have some kind of time/place disturb, and I get confused very easily; I have this urge to tell a story that reminds me something that is happening and most of the times those stories have little to do with what is happening and don't matter to anyone, in other words, boring; I go from 8 to 80, like I can step everyone else to tell my boring stories (that I sortely can't control), and in the other end I am that person with low energy levels, just few times funny, with few things to say, being like somewhat excited when talking and little time latter being the opposite in relation to communication.

I tend to talk a lot about me, what I know it's tedious for the other people. I talk a lot about my experiences, when we are discussing something related, even I know them just a little and they aren't interested in them. I try to control this, but I really feel like.

I'm very distracted, with my head in the clouds: forggeting things, missing things, saying wrong things...and sometimes I have this child like behaviour (jumping, doing ridiculous stuff, talking with strange voice tones, saying ridiculous things on porpose).

These are basicaly the reasons I'm not very likable. People don't like me very much, and they can't and they won't.

Beside these, I feel like there's a wall bettwen me and the rest of the world, like I'm in this bubble, from where I can see the others, and it makes it realy hard to trully feel conected with someone. Just some few times. Even with the ones I know for years. Sometimes it just feels like while I'm speaking to others I'm just talking to myself, there isn't really anybody there. It's awfall.

I'm always finding mistakes in my behaviour that I'm sure people don't apreciate and that will made them be away from me. And that's true. I annoy people, I can't be any different, and I regret the mistakes that make people find me annoying.