I have come to the conclusion that I am ruled by my emotions - logic doesn't seem to come into it and that is why most of the time my life is a mess. For instance I could see the relationship with my partner who I believe to be NPD was wrong - he raged - he belittled he verbally and physically abused me and yet my emotions still tell me I love him, I forgive him over and over again but in the end it is me who gets hurt and discarded with everything being blamed on me. How can I learn not to let my emotions rule over me. I need to become harder and far more logical - instead of which I am guided purely by emotion - usually love or sympathy or empathy and whereas I don't want to lose touch with them I would love to be able to integrate them with logic and reason!