I was a psych nurse for 4 years and got fired, but for good reasons. I was in a major manic episode for a few months. I wasn't given the option to do anything to give me my job back. I'm still working this out in therapy. It totally destroyed my self esteem.I can imagine that having your license suspended is a huge trigger.

You've handled so much...please take care of yourself and see your therapist more often to work out all the anger (I know, I was there). Your doctor might adjust your meds too.

The last thing you need is another episode. Be gentle to yourself and focus on healing while you're not working.